to be or not to be

i am contemplating whether or not the life i want can actually exist. All the factors that in my mind would equal a satisfying experience exist individually, but can they all exist at once and fulfill my ideal? Can i be creative enough to have a good creative job, or do the realities of day to day business with difficult clients and the bottom line cloud my vision? Is my ideal unrealistic? Do i even know what I really want? I know I dont like working, i would much rather invest my time other ways. I am searching for this be all end all job/career, and i dont know if i am going to find it. where did i get this idea?