so this one goes out to josh........ again.

im sitting in my stale office today -- guess the magic of climate control has escaped the maintenance guys once again. They try, god bless them, but a lot of basic things seem to be beyond their grasp... anyways..

Living downtown now for almost two months. I decided to have a random housewarming, i wanted to wait awhile, have my house look spectacular.. but that will take a lot longer and by then my house might already be warm. (ha!) i enjoy being down here, some days I dont even drive at all. A girlfriend moved in a few doors down june 01 so we carpool often to the grocery, etc. My porch is huge, which is nice because i sit out there to enjoy the weather or to eat and hang out with friends. Living on my own at first was really tough. I didnt have tv, and i still dont, and no internet at first so once i was in my place i was effectively cut off. it was a rough transition at first but i dont know if i want a tv now, i havent watched it for about two months and havent really missed it. I have watched a few times at Josh's house but i get restless quickly.

I have started volunteering at the foodbank. The funny thing is I just go down there because I want to be there and I keep getting asked why I am there. Am I a part of some church group? Am I doing community service? Nope, just me I say. I didnt know it was unusual for someone to just come and volunteer. The first thing i did was pick strawberries at a farm just outside of town. it was a lovely afternoon to be out there and i picked just over 9 lbs. My legs definitely got a workout..

Also in breaking news... Josh and I decided to get married. I know, at first it was really surreal for me. I who have been adamently single and independent my whole life am giving it up. But I must say, I can't think of a better way or person to give it up for. I believe that we all live seasons of life, and when they are over it is best to admit that and get excited for the next. My single life is coming to an end.. in october to be exact, and I am very peaceful about that.

I doubt myself more than him in this decision because I tend to to do that about new things. The subtle shift in our relationship since we decided this has been amazing, i dont feel just me anymore. I am becoming an us, and I am ok with it. Rest assured I will never be one of those lame "us-es" who speaks in couple-ese only and disappears off the radar of my single friends. I do know there will be changes but I will cross those bridges when I get to them.

Did I mention that I am so very content and excited?