I have a new set of eyes. "Those that have hears let them hear and those that have eyes let them see". Thats me now. In spiritual matters, I believe that life happens and we make choices to either grow closer to or further away from God. I have taken a step closer. I realized a long time ago in my head that I am not doomed to repeat the past if I dont want to, but my heart still chose to carry around the weight everyday. My head made the right changes but it couldnt travel to my spirit and show up in my actions. I was reading Celebration of Discipline and thinking of the how it echos The Complex Christ, or vice versa since it was written first when it hit me. I am free, free from all those ghosts that have haunted me. I had the mental revelations over this past week, but for the first time I had the spiritual awakening I have pursued.


But that is not the way you learned Christ! assuming that you have heard about him and were taught in him, as the truth is in Jesus, to put off your old self,which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds,and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.

For the first time it is possible for me to do this. I felt the Holy Spirit work a subtle transformation. All I could do was laugh and feel free for the first time in a long time. Freedom doesnt mean guranteed happiness or all the answers, but it does mean the ability to make choices and improve upon myself, and i can definitely handle that.